Monday, January 22, 2007

time to vote

... not for the French election just yet, but for something equally earth-shattering.

So the choice as it stands is: we're staying in France for another year, maybe five (although the exchange rate may force us out). The two contenders are the Montpellier and Nice areas, and for the following reasons.

Nice:
  • besides Paris, only French airport with direct flights to the US
  • biggest technology pole outside of Paris
  • lots of bilingual schools
  • lots of international folks
  • we've finally started to connect with some really nice people here: international, young kids, techno oriented - our kind of people (whereas in Montpellier we know 1 person)
  • we have a comfortable routine here; don't laugh too hard, it's the stuff of everyday life: a mommy&me group followed by doing groceries with the little one, a yoga class or a swim session, some favorite hikes; we finally know where to buy cheaper wood for the chimney, or paper supplies, or who to call to clean the boiler. it's the stuff that makes daily life smooth(er).



Montpellier:

  • we love the city, it's upbeat, growing, young, happening, and - we hope - less dominated by grumpy old folks. In fact we've been to more exhibits and museums in our two quick weekends to Montpellier than we have in Nice.
  • much more accessible to Paris and the rest of France by train and car than Nice (read, mother may babysit more often, brothers may visit more)
  • the price of life is high but not yet quite as exhorbitant as Nice
  • I feel closer to the culture of Montpellier (Spain-influenced) than to the culture of Nice (Italy-influenced): food wise, fashion wise, lifestyle wise. I've always felt that Nice wasn't really France, didn't look or behave like France, was more of a facade for tourists, whereas around Montpellier I feel that we're stepping back in France with gorgeous 'allées de platanes' (tree-lined roads) for instance.
  • (The city's also got the best hospitals in France; there's a tiny minute chance that my brother could do his residency there).


As you can see, it looks like long-term Montpellier may be a better fit for us, or so we think, but it's such a gamble. Do we really want to start all over again with 1+ years of struggling to meet a friendly soul, when there's absolutely no guarantee that we'll find the right community for us? It's a long and arduous process. I feel that this is it: we wouldn't move to Montpellier than decide to move back around here a year later. We have limited opportunities to meet others - working from home, no kids in school, etc.
Are we splitting hairs over a decision most families never get the chance to make (since their location is mandated by a job)?

Please tell me what you think. I don't care if you know nothing or close to nothing about either cities, I really want to hear your opinions. Please. Help.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

literary consumption

I was recently admitting to a good friend that I could not keep up with her fast reading, but I am still excited and energized by the amount I'm able to sneak in at the end of the day.

Read Edward P. Jones' The Known World over the holidays. Pulitzer prize winner. Found it hard. Both because I don't like the writing style. And because of the subject matter: blacks (often former slaves) owning slaves themselves; the 'moral complexity' of the relations between masters, overseers, slaves; the overall completely and overwhelmingly distressing situations - freed men whose papers are torn apart and sold back into slavery; children slaves who die of starvation; mothers who abort in the middle of too hard a day's labor; complete lawlessness. Maybe it was the timing (holidays), but if it weren't for the occasional reminder that things would quickly change and they'd all be free and generally happier (if they had not been killed in the mean time), I would have found it hard to finish. So, good for the history, not my cup of tea for the writing, not an uplifiting read.

Quickly read Nicholas Spark's The Notebook . Sweet love story with a twist; easy read.

Finished Lucia Etxebarria's A Miracle in Balance . Greatly enjoyed it, though not at all what I expected. I expected a mother-to-daughter here's-how-i-feel-about-you-and-your-birth, and it was in fact much more a novel about the (imaginary) mother's life up to her daughter's birth - delving into family troubles and how do we live on destructive cycles we grew up with, how do we get out of those, and what is family, and how do we choose to allow ourselves to conceive, and how the birth of a child makes us grow into our responsibilities. Recommend it even if you're not a parent, and not planning on being one ever.

And... I was treated to (aka spoiled with) a stash of books for my birthday. Delight ! I'll keep you posted.

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Went to the doc yesterday. By the end of the exam, the poor guy felt sorry for my variety of ailments. And since I'd told him I'd hesitated many times before coming here, he went back to his notes and said "last time you were here, you came because you were tired" (indeed). I could see him thinking , 'wow, she must have really been exhausted to show up then - since here she almost didn't come, yet i'm sending her home with a list of prescriptions the size of a small grocery list.' I did a little happy dance in my head at noticing that, then reflected on it. The greatest sin in my family was always laziness, and that included skipping on school or work if you weren't really truly cripplingly ill. How often I've double-guessed myself only to find out I had a fever well over 40. So the little happy dance is silly. I've seen what complete disregard to my physical limitations looks like (not pretty). Instead I'll be aiming to strive for better balance between in-tune with self, and no self-pity. Mantra of the new year #3.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

29

Happy belated birthday, me. I feel young.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

world's worst ideas

On the UK's expensive Trident nuclear weapons, potential nuclear non-proliferation treaty breach, and the Body Shop founder
And it is easy to forget as we fret about North Korea that more countries have given up nuclear weapons over the past generation than have developed them. Brazil, Argentina, South Africa, Ukraine all abandoned the bomb. Nor do G8 countries like Canada, Germany, Italy feel any less secure without nuclear weapons.

None of our wars were ever won by them and none of the enemies we fought was deterred by them. General Galtieri was not deterred from seizing the Falklands, although Britain possessed the nuclear bomb and Argentina did not."

Both Hans Blix, the former chief UN weapons inspector and Kofi Annan, the UN secretary general have spoken out to urge the UK and other nuclear weapons states not to re-arm. As Annan put it, "by clinging to and modernizing their own arsenals, even when there is no obvious threat to their national security that nuclear weapons could deter, nuclear-weapon states encourage others - particularly those that do face real threats in their own region - to regard nuclear weapons as essential, both to their security and to their status. It would be much easier to confront proliferators if the very existence of nuclear weapons were universally acknowledged as dangerous and ultimately illegitimate."

A 2007 warning: The world's worst 12 ideas

Number twelve: Human behaviour can be predicted

In the name of a supposedly "scientific" criterion of knowledge, scholars are berated for not predicting the end of the cold war, the rise of Islam, 9/11 and much else besides. Yet many natural sciences – seismology, evolutionary biology - cannot predict with accuracy either. Human affairs themselves, even leaving aside the matter of human intention and will, allow of too many variables for such calculation. We will never be able to predict with certainty the outcome of a sports contest, the incidence of revolutions, the duration of passion or how long an individual will live.

Number eleven: The world is speeding up

This, a favourite trope of globalisation theorists, confuses acceleration in some areas, such as the transmission of knowledge, with the fact that large areas of human life continue to demand the same time as before: to conceive and bear a child, to learn a language, to grow up, to digest a meal, to enjoy a joke, to read a poem. It takes the same time to fly from London to New York as it did forty years ago, ditto to boil an egg or publish a book. Some activities – such as or driving around major western cities, getting through an airport, or dying - may take much longer.

Number ten: We have no need for history

In recent decades, large areas of intellectual and academic life - political thought and analysis, economics, philosophy - have jettisoned a concern with history. Yet it remains true that those who ignore history repeat it; as the recycling of unacknowledged cold-war premises by the Bush administration in Iraq has devastatingly shown.

Number nine: We live in a "post-feminist" epoch

The implication of this claim, supposedly analogous to such terms as "post-industrial", is that we have no more need for feminism, in politics, law, everyday life, because the major goals of that movement, articulated in the 1970s and 1980s, have been achieved. On all counts, this is a false claim: the "post-feminist" label serves not to register achievement of reforming goals, but the delegitimation of those goals themselves.

Number eight: Markets are a "natural" phenomenon which allow for the efficient allocation of resources and preferences

Markets are not "natural" but are the product of particular societies, value systems and patterns of state relation to the economy. They are not efficient allocators of goods, since they ignore the large area of human activity and need that is not covered by monetary values - from education and the provision of public works, to human happiness and fulfillment. In any case the pure market is a fantasy; the examples of the two most traded commodities in the contemporary world, oil and drugs, show how political, social and cartel factors override and distort the workings of supply and demand.

Number seven: Religion should again be allowed, when not encouraged, to play a role in political and social life

From the evangelicals of the United States, to the followers of Popes John Paul II and Benedict XVI, to the Islamists of the middle east, the claim about the benefits of religion is one of the great, and all too little challenged, impostures of our time. For centuries, those aspiring to freedom and democracy, be it in Europe or the middle east, fought to push back the influence of religion on public life. Secularism cannot guarantee freedom, but, against the claims of tradition and superstition, and the uses to which religion is put in modern political life, from California to Kuwait, it is an essential bulwark.

Number six: In the modern world, we do not need utopias

Dreaming, the aspiration to a better world and the imagination thereof, is a necessary part of the human condition.

Number five: We should welcome the spread of English as a world language

It is obviously of practical benefit that there is one common, functional, language of trade, air traffic control etc, but the actual domination of English in today's world has been accompanied by a tide of cultural arrogance that is itself debasing: a downgrading and neglect of other languages and cultures across the world, the general compounding of Anglo-Saxon political and social arrogance, and the introverted collapse of interest within English-speaking countries themselves in other peoples and languages, in sum, a triumph of banality over diversity. One small but universal example: the imposition on hotel staff across the world, with all its wonderful diversity of nomenclature, of name tags denoting the bearer as "Mike", "Johnny" and "Steve".

Number four: The world is divided into incomparable moral blocs, or civilisations

This view has been aptly termed (by Ernest Gellner) as "liberalism for the liberals, cannibalism for the cannibals". But a set of common values is indeed shared across the world: from democracy and human rights to the defence of national sovereignty and belief in the benefits of economic development. The implantation of these values is disputed, in all countries, but not the values themselves. Most states in the world, whatever their cultural or religious character, have signed the universalist United Nations declarations on human rights, starting with the 1948 universal declaration.

Number three: Diasporas have a legitimate role to play in national and international politics

The notion that emigrant or diaspora communities have a special insight into the problems of their homeland, or a special moral or political status in regard to them, is wholly unfounded. Emigrant ethnic communities play almost always a negative, backward, at once hysterical and obstructive, role in resolving the conflicts of their countries of origin: Armenians and Turks, Jews and Arabs, various strands of Irish, are prime examples on the inter-ethnic front, as are exiles in the United States in regard to resolving the problems of Cuba, or policymaking on Iran. English emigrants are less noted for any such political role, though their spasms of collective inebriation and conformist ghettoised lifestyles abroad do little to enhance the reputation of their home country.

Number two: The only thing "they" understand is force

This has been the guiding illusion of hegemonic and colonial thinking for several centuries. Oppressed peoples do not accept the imposition of solutions by force: they revolt. It is the oppressors who, in the end, have to accept the verdict of force, as European empires did in Latin America, Africa and Asia and as the United States is doing in Iraq today. The hubris of "mission accomplished" in May 2003 has been followed by ignominy.

Number one: The world's population problems, and the spread of Aids, can be solved without the use of condoms

This is not only the most dangerous, but also the most criminal, error of the modern world. Millions of people will suffer, and die premature and humiliating deaths, as a result of the policies pursued in this regard through the United Nations and related aid and public-health programmes. Indeed, there is no need to ask where the first mass murderers of the 21st century are; we already know, and their addresses besides: the Lateran Palace, Vatican City, Rome, and 1600 Pennsylvania Avenue, Washington DC. Timely arrest and indictment would save many lives.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

more on chemicals' harms to our bodies

Environmental pollutants (synthetic chemicals) passing from woman to child, lingering in women's bodies, affecting women more than men, and children most of all; in Hereditary Toxins Spur Scientific Concern. ''

"Manufacturers are producing new chemicals all the time with little government oversight," says Julia Brody, director of the Silent Spring Institute, based in Newton, Mass. "We need tighter restrictions, like those in Europe, if we hope to protect the next generation."(note that Europe is far from great and that the UK in particular has been pushing back on tighter EU-wide regulations).
In 2002, a study found that 1 in 6 U.S. women of reproductive age has enough of mercury contaminant in her blood to endanger a developing fetus.

Some compounds can linger for decades after a single exposure. Take DDT, a pesticide that can damage the nervous system. In May 2006, the Seattle-based Toxic-Free Legacy Coalition tested Washington residents and found 80 percent had detectible levels of the chemical in their bloodstreams 34 years after it was banned in the United States.

"There is extensive evidence of harm in animals and growing evidence of harm in humans," says Frederick vom Saal, a professor of biology at the University of Missouri-Columbia.

They say pollutants may be partly responsible for the rising incidence of breast cancer, up 90 percent in 50 years and triggered in lab studies by organochlorine pesticides, mercury, PAH (found in auto emissions) and polyvinyl chloride (PVC, found in plastics).

Other health problems that researchers say may be linked to environmental toxins include male infertility, which has increased twelvefold in the past 80 years; prostate cancer, up 75 percent in 30 years; diabetes, which has doubled in the past 25 years; and obesity, which has doubled in the past 15 years.

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Prozac in earthworms, and other synthetic aberrations in wildlife; in
Female Trouble for Wildlife Raise Human Worries

In California, female sea lions are spontaneously aborting their fetuses. In the Great Lakes area, mother gulls are sharing nests and raising eggs together because their male partners have forgotten how to parent. In upstate New York, female frogs have as much testosterone in their bodies as males. Scientists say these aberrations all share a common link: exposure to toxic chemicals called "endocrine disruptors," which pollute the air, soil and water.

In Washington state, endocrine disruptors have been tied to the deaths of mother orcas, whose orphans have been adopted by other female whales. In Alaska, they have caused female polar bears' ovaries to shrink. In Massachusetts, they have lowered the over-winter survival rates of female tree swallows. In Florida, they have accumulated in the milk of mother dolphins, poisoning and killing their calves.

Synthetic compounds have been detected in even the simplest life forms. According to a 2006 study by the U.S. Geological Survey (USGS), earthworms now have an average 31 pollutants in their bodies, including perfumes, household disinfectants and the antidepressant Prozac.

Just as alarming as these problems is the low level of exposure at which they are occurring. When Tyrone Hayes, an assistant professor of biology at the University of California, Berkeley, studied the endocrine-disrupting properties of atrazine, a common weed killer, he discovered reproductive abnormalities in affected leopard frogs at 0.1 parts per billion parts water, 30 times less than the Environmental Protection Agency's limit for atrazine in drinking water.

Consider phthalates, those chemicals that help prevent makeup from smudging. In 2003, an Environmental Protection Agency study found these substances could reduce fertility in rodents, causing female rats to bear 50 to 90 percent fewer offspring.


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Breast cancer rates down, mostly in women over 50, may be due to millions discontinuing hormone therapy replacement

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You may be interested in the "skin deep" report and database by the Environmental Working Group on safer cosmetics and care products (there is standard for 'natural' labels in the US).
Think you don't use cosmetics? what about toothpaste, shampoo, and so on... check it out.

Monday, January 08, 2007

Admissions

Relax, despite my melodramatic previous post, I have not lost all sense of perspective.

In France, the generic toast year-round is "santé !" (health!).
We have all three been through a bout of bad stomach flu, and are now battling bronchitis.
A neighbor and friend of the family had a heart attack on January 2nd during his second session with a personal trainer (Christmas gift from his children). P says he's read that such heart attacks during training sessions are becoming extremely common; couldn't find a reliable news source to confirm though. The man was quickly defibrillated, transported and top-notch cared for. Still, his heart had stopped.

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Second mantra of the new year: Remember when it is not about me.
I am somewhat unaffected by the passing of the new year evening. I have realized that it is not about the pants I wear, the ice I fail to put in my water, or the language I speak to my child; in fact it is not at all about me, but rather about her (mil). thus me = zen.
And when the little one wakes up because she is jet-lagged, ill, teething, going through a major growth developmental spurt, it is also not about me. It's about her. so me = zip it (or try to).

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Have you seen the US News and World Report? I stumbled upon it at the medical office, and could only see contempt for the rest of the world. no understanding, only judging.

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Once upon a time in a lecture room, I realized that our conception of things in 'states' rather than 'processes' is all wrong. We define and describe things as they are at the present, instead of the direction they are taking. Backwards: we lose all the richness of the reality.

For instance, we say "as of today, she walks". 6 months later she'll still be stumbling her way through walking. Slowly she learns to turn in mid-course, to stop and start again, to squat up and down, to get up on her own without the help of a step or a leg or a wall, to run, and so on. There is no "she walks". There is only "she is learning to walk".

And us, we're not parents; we're parenting. We're in the process of growing a little person. And an adorable one at that!

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

The New Year

New Year's Eve was wholly catastrophic. At the bottom in the annals of my new years. Worse yet than finding myself on the parking lot of a deserted strip mall at the change of millenium. And this massive downer was single-handedly orchestrated by my mother in law.

I have seen the depth of her malady, of her contempt and hatred, and of the disease that stems from her manipulative control freakness. It is horrific.

Is it worth mentioning that first thing the following morning I was about to book 9 hour non-direct flights to cross the country and escape from this, with a super-active lil one, which would have tallied up to 4 the number of flights it would have taken us to then get home, and only stopped because we agreed instead to go home early, only to find that all earlier flights were fully booked and prices had gone up?
Should I also mention that this was before the lil one lost 2 pounds overnight (2 out of 20) and I became intimately familiar with the laundry room?
For kicks, I'll also mention that this was right after I'd settled on my new year resolution - "not to dwell on negative things". Sure tested me quickly.

I sincerely hope your new year and all of 2007 will be more like what I had planned originally: dancing in the moonlight with your loved one(s).

Happy Happy Happy New Year, Peace and Love and Understanding to all.